What do internalizing on behalf of a separate self & gravity have in common?
Nothing… as neither actually exist.
Yet, notice the similarity…
There is no such thing as negative, negative energy, negative emotions, negative feelings, bad feelings or feeling bad. These are concepts. These are experienced as thoughts, as interpretations of perception & sensation. These are conceptualizations of perception & sensation, and ultimately, of Self.
There is also no such thing as states of consciousness or higher & lower consciousness. These are also concepts. These are experienced as conceptualizations of perception & sensation. Of, Self / You / Yourself, awareness.
As these concepts are believed, it’s inherently, simultaneously believed, that there is “a knower”. A self which is separate of perception and sensation, which observes, learns, has insights, understands and knows about, perception & sensation. You / Self / Yourself, awareness.
Imagine spending your life as it were believing thoughts that you are a unicorn, without even noticing. Simply because it’s not true, the interpretation would feel discordant.
Imagine everyone or nearly everyone also seems to believe they are a unicorn and there are unicorns. This would of course be mass delusion, as obviously there aren’t unicorns.
All of these misinterpretations and therein “mis-wirings” in terms of emotions would be felt, yet, the concepts being so convincing could continue to be believed.
Imagine everyone believes this nonetheless, in spite of how off it feels, and creates solutions to this problem for everyone else. For all the other unicorns.
Imagine there are even teachers of spirituality, of Truth, believing there are unicorns & that they themself are a unicorn… and teaching accordingly.
Now stop imagining and notice - this is not imaginary, this is reality. That reality is nearly entirely conceptualized, right down to identity, is ostensibly indicative of the current situation.
Now imagine one more aspect. Imagine everything you’ve learned from society and from spiritual teachers about the unicorn situation… is believed. Not your beliefs per se, but just - beliefs… which were / are deeply believed & continue to be taught academically & spiritually, reinforcing the beliefs.
And so now, you’re believing the same thing as it were. You’re simply innocently believing what you’ve been told & taught by self-proclaimed authority figures in academia & spirituality.
You’ve internalized beliefs which simply don’t resonate with the truth because they were / are… innocently… believed.
What’s this have to do with gravity?
Gravity is a concept. As the reality that reality is apparent, appearance, is overlooked and these conceptualizations based on separation are believed… it’s believed there is gravity; some mysterious opposite-to-creation force holding “all” the “separate things” down.
Note that the experience of gravity is a thought, an interpretation, a concept, a conceptualization… by noticing gravity isn’t actually seen in perception nor found in sensation. Focus directly on perception & sensation, allowing beliefs to untangle naturally, allowing alignment & simply being as yourself, allowing the un-conceptualizing of - you, consciousness.
What’s this have to do with internalizing?
Take, so to speak, all of the academic and spiritual teachings based on conceptualizations… on separation… and throw them in the garbage. Not in spite, and not with any resentment or animosity, as all is innocence… rather… simply for how it feels to do so. With respect, with compassion for how it feels, wish this very same alignment & well-being on ‘their’ behalf as well, and feel the alignment as you do.
If you’ve been bamboozled, deceived, convinced by these so called teachers & teachings… it’s highly likely that additional beliefs, and perhaps even some reliance of substances, experiences and or ‘others’ to ‘cope’ have already ensued.
Examples might be;
“I don’t get it” (what I’ve been convinced someone else gets).
“I don’t know” (what I’ve been convinced someone else knows).
“I don’t have enough understanding” (of what I’ve been convinced someone else understands).
“I’m not high enough consciousness” (in accordance with having been convinced there are levels or degrees of infinite consciousness).
“I don’t have enough experience” (in accordance with having been convinced understanding, emotional intelligence, awakening / enlightenment, etc… are somehow related to or come from experience).
These comparative thoughts have no actual basis in reality, as what’s believed to be compared doesn’t actually exist and isn’t actually experienced. The so called teachers & teachings may have been experienced, yet what the concepts are about, or what the concepts point to - isn’t.
The actuality of experience is that of these as conceptualizations of reality, on behalf of a separate self which is of thoughts (experience) - which is thoughts… and is not a self.
These are concepts based on unicorns, and you are not a unicorn. Yet, with confidence & repetition, these concepts can be deeply believed & engrained, in spite of the discord / suffering felt. In spite of the glaring effects on your life, relationships & consciously creating as it were.
In large part so to speak, this occurs via trust. Trust in teachers. Yet, trust is synonymous with belief & believing.
Trust & believing could very well be said to be opposite to… inspecting, feeling, actually allowing alignment & well-being, and actually finding out.
As just one example of feeling an emotion vs believing unicorn concepts & suppressing emotions… consider blame.
As concepts… the mind, so to speak, seems to ‘wander off’ into a past, blaming someone. Life is blamed. Society is blamed. Other is blamed. The ‘energy’ is blamed. Lack (of understanding, knowledge, consciousness, higher consciousness, etc) is blamed. The concept of shame might even be employed. You might even believe you are to be blamed, are at fault, or should be or deserve to be punished. You might be looking for someone or something to blame, to ‘solve the riddle’ of what ‘caused’ this discord / suffering.
As emotion, blame is how the interpretation(s) feels.